Captain Satellite's Fun Fun Central

The End Times Are Nigh

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 07:47:31 GMT

Well, I have complained about it more than once, but now I have a Twitter of my own. I've got a few days worth of stuff on there, but I have the sneaking suspicion it's just going to be a place to promote and launch more gags. I really don't see it sustaining my interest as a long-term vehicle for me. Still, you never know.

I am increasingly growing frustrated with this computer. I am not sure if my connection is finally dying the death of ceased usefulness, or if there are deeper issues going on here. Either way, I am pretty unhappy with the way things are going. Unfortunately, I don't see a viable solution on the horizon.

Business as usual on the personal front. One step forward, one (or two!) steps back. Sigh. Not much more to add to that that hasn't been said a million times.

Lastly, it is always of paramount importance to remember the truth about any situation, no matter how pleasing the lie might be.

Firegirl Birthday Surprise For sara_the_puu

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 07:27:41 GMT

Sarapuu's Birthday Surprise by ~celamowari on deviantART

On my birthday, my talented friend Sara surprised me with a brand-new pic of my character Firegirl. Since Sara has adopted Firegirl to the point that I consider her the character's godmother, I felt it only appropriate to pay her back.

I tried to do some different things here. For one, Firegirl is drawn in my usual style, but the Sara figure is my attempt to emulate her cartoon version of herself. I didn't even come close to succeeding, but I still kind of like what I did. Hopefully, I can incorporate it into my regular work.

If the coloring looks different, that's because it was done by hand in crayon. I was inspired by Sara's pic to take this approach to see how it looked. The scan sort of takes the shine out of it, but I think it is rather neat with my style. I may try it again in the future.

Happy birthday, Sara!

It Was Still Friday When I Started

Sat, 24 Oct 2009 05:06:40 GMT

Hello friends, and possibly fiends. The weather here was so terrible on Thursday that I did not leave the safety of my yard. Can't say I minded, but when it cleared off enough to dare connect to the internet, well...

I'm on an antiquated dial-up connection, and yes, I'm aware. Last night was even better. My best connection was a blazing 14.4 kbps. Woo hoo! I am top of the line for 1995! Yeah, so I didn't do much last night as a result of that.

I guess I am alright. Some parts of me don't feel that way, but I wonder if some of that is just in my head at times. Wouldn't surprise me overly much.

I had a dream the other morning. It was nice, but also depressing. Why? Because it's something I can never have. It wasn't even about romance, but that didn't make it any less depressing.

On a lighter, slightly more holiday-ish note, I found this for a buddy of mine tonight. OK, yes, it was kazekage. Enjoy the music!

http://www.horrorhostgraveyard.com/2008/10/morgus-magnificent.html

Aoyama A-Go-Go

Tue, 20 Oct 2009 07:20:39 GMT

Well, since last we talked, there has been good, and bad. No surprise, right? There's a tiny little bit of an upswing, but that can change at any moment. I'm just trying to keep my head above water right now.

The weather has gotten chillier, which is fine by me. However, my body is objecting at times. I wish it would cut it out.

We're in the second half of October. One year, 10 months, 6 months - they all feel like yesterday or a lifetime ago, depending on the mood. I think I am OK, mostly. I'm longing for the day when I don't just feel like I'm only "making it" or "surviving". But so many of my friends have it worse, so I am a chump to complain. But...sometimes I do anyway.

On a possibly unrelated note, I have apparently been mysteriously subscribed to MEN'S HEALTH.

Lovely

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 05:43:06 GMT

I love when even what should be the best of days is clouded by the feeling of impending doom. Why do things like this keep happening to me? I'm not seeking them out, honest.

Arrgh.

I've got a busy day tomorrow, and hopefully at least some of that will involve being productive with the writing. I fear I'm not holding my breath, but hope springs eternal. I've got some comics due that ought to arrive tomorrow or Wednesday, too. That'll be fun.

I thought I had more to write about here, but I guess not.

!

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 04:35:34 GMT

This week was completely fascinating. I haven't decided yet if that's going to turn out to be to my benefit or not. You see, I had one of those completely unlikely, inexplicable things happen to me this week. This could turn out to be fate, or destiny, or whatever you'd like to call it. It could also turn out to be nothing, and my life just messing me with again. I don't know.

If this does turn out to be "fate", I'll have quite the story to tell. And it will be really wonderful, too.

In other news, I'm trying to slowly make some changes to myself, to get to a better place than where I am at the moment. So far, it seems to be working adequately. Kinda nervous to look into some aspects of it right now. Kinda sad I had reached that point, anyway.

I don't really care about reality TV one way or the other, but I've sort of become perversely fascinated by the Jon Gosselin sideshow. How much can these people self-destruct in the public eye? I'm not sure we've even come close to reaching the threshold.

Oh, and my New Orleans Saints are 4-0 right now. Let's see if they can sustain this, or if they'll break my heart yet again. Sports, you are a fickle mistress.

I HAVE RETURNED

Wed, 30 Sep 2009 05:13:24 GMT

Well, that's not a surprise, is it? I said I would, and here I am.

Interestingly, it appears I managed to narrowly avoid the media embed worm that found its way through LiveJournal. Awesome.

I think I'm doing OK, though things could be better (obviously). I'm trying to do some things that will hopefully make "better" a reality and not just something I hope for again.

Tuesday got off to a rough start (my fault), but it was overall a very nice day. Absolutely gorgeous too, so I'm glad I got the chance to enjoy it.

And finally, it wasn't really unexpected, but I am disappointed to report that "DJ Loverman" has been taken many times over. My search for my dance hall name continues unabated (not really).

First there is a mountain, then there is no mountain, then there is

Tue, 22 Sep 2009 05:25:43 GMT

There is something oddly poetic about LiveJournal making a big hoo-har over the new option for paid/permanent accounts to display ads and earn money from them this week. Gosh, and I'll just bet LJ isn't making a cent off this deal. They are doing it out of the goodness of their hearts, for their loyal users.

*cough*

Having a paid account has been a fun time and all, but it has outlived its usefulness for me. There isn't enough on the site anymore. And frankly, I've lost my will to maintain the journal schedule that has been the norm here. So the paid account expires Friday or Saturday and I will downgrade. With the exception of my infrequent phone posts being absent, there probably won't be much difference from the last couple of years.

Speaking of the last couple of years...

I can't pinpoint where my journal started losing steam, but it happened somewhere along the way. There have been a few things that pumped MY enthusiasm back up, but it didn't really last. And this year...oy, this year.

I started my second blog on Blogger, and it has sort of taken off. But the new blog has gradually usurped some of the material that would have been posted here. It's become harder and harder to maintain interest in the journal when I've carved out a big piece of its content and shipped it somewhere else. That left...

Well, some stuff that I probably needed to get out of my system. That didn't make it any easier to write, much less to read. I'm not ashamed of it, but I can't say it was my proudest moment either. I'm pretty sure it was the final nail in the coffin of carrying on business as usual here. It changed the tone back to something I thought I'd left behind me, and, I suspect, drove at least one person away from posting to their LiveJournal for good. I deeply regret that part of the equation. Sincerely.

But as I've said, what's done is done, and we move on. I think the uncomfortable phase has passed, but what I'm left with is a journal that I love but which has grown a little tired and stale. There are still a few of you who drop by and read it, but it mostly feels like I'm talking to myself these days. Nothing wrong with that, but less and less people even care about LiveJournal. I have to explain what LJ is to almost everyone now.

Still, this isn't a grand farewell for me. I'll still be here; just a little less than I used to be. There are new places to explore, and new worlds to conquer. This journal holds a special place in my heart, so I'll continue to use it until the day the plug gets pulled on this site entirely. Sadly, I don't feel like that last bit is hyperbole. To me, it's not a question of "if", but "when".

It's been fun, LiveJournal. But after this week, I won't be giving you any more money.

Thanks

Sat, 19 Sep 2009 04:13:53 GMT

Thank you to everyone who has offered their condolences for the loss of my older sister. I'm doing alright, though it's not something that is easy by any stretch.

The time is growing short for the paid account status of this journal. I guess I'll discuss that more the next time I post.

My Onda

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 06:02:52 GMT

http://christopherelam.blogspot.com/2009/09/my-onda.html

When I was little, I used to call my older sister Rhonda, "Onda". She thought that was really cute. But then, I was her little brother, and almost everything I did was adorable to her.

Rhonda was my half-sister, and sixteen years my senior. She had moved out by the time I became aware of my surroundings. I really didn't see her that much as I was growing up, and honestly, didn't see her that much afterward either. It was hard to think of her as my sister in the way that Amy, my younger sister, is my sister. It was different. But I still loved her all the same.

I learned this morning that Rhonda had become very sick, but for reasons of her own, she hadn't wanted us to know (she lived in Texas). Her boyfriend called to tell us that she had gone into a coma. This evening, I learned that she was gone. In 24 hours, I've gone from not knowing anything about her illness to having to say goodbye. It's hard.

I love you, Onda. I wish I could hug you and tell you that one more time.

I Said I Was Going To Bed Soon, Right?

Fri, 11 Sep 2009 05:09:08 GMT

I will be, actually. But I guess I should update this, since I have some things to say.

As I mentioned in my voice post, I got a very bad computer virus last week. So bad that I am on a new hard drive. None of my actual important work was lost, but I'm slowly rebuilding what I want to rebuild from the last computer. I am looking at this more as a renewal than an inconvenience, and to discard certain things.

Oh, it doesn't prove a durn thing, but the last site I visited before I got slammed with the virus was LiveJournal.

As for me, I've been keeping busy with various things. I feel a tad freer, and less chained to the web and some of my old habits. That's good. I did suffer from more than one bout of insomnia this week. THAT was bad. I became quite delirious from lack of sleep on Wednesday, and it's not a sensation I'm eager to re-experience.

Due to phone woes (again!), I made a foray into the LC today, and got a chance to hang with gonzo_rev for a time. We learned a valuable lesson, too - Grand Funk Railroad's cover of "Gimme Shelter" should be avoided like the plague.

Other lessons learned today included that Wal-Mart did not stock boxes of 64 crayons and that my mother knew the names of the Black-Eyed Peas. Which, I cannot decide which was weirder.

And this journal? Well, I'm still thinking about this journal. Whatever happens, it's not going to "end". No, nothing quite so melodramatic.

Hello

Sun, 06 Sep 2009 03:24:17 GMT

Yes, I am back online.

Voice Post

Sat, 05 Sep 2009 15:30:27 GMT

Report!

Wed, 02 Sep 2009 01:30:17 GMT

I am watching the Toho Icons of Sci-Fi set too, though I have no idea how long it will take to finish. I also have more comics than I know what to do with, but that isn't gonna stop me from buying more stuff tomorrow.

I feel kinda bleh right now. But I got carded tonight, and that is pretty sweet at this point.

Wow Jim

Sun, 30 Aug 2009 05:52:22 GMT

I am so, so tired tonight. Why? I sure didn't exert myself that much durimg the day, and I got plenty of rest. Oh well, I guess I'll be shuffling off to bed soon anyway. Just questioning the fates is all.

Have you been keeping up with my blog? It's far more entertaining than I've been here lately. Some of it is brand-new, and some of it is "classic" (using the term loosely) material from the vaults. It's getting some positive notices here and there, so maybe it will accomplish its goal. Here's hoping.

Well

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 04:23:30 GMT

So. Interesting. I think I've made a couple of decisions today. They are what they are. I'll talk more about at least one of them sooner or later.

But for now...

Stayed in bed all morning just to pass the time
There's something wrong here
There can be no denying
One of us is changing
Or maybe we've just stopped trying

And it's too late baby, now it's too late
Though we really did try to make it
Something inside has died and I can't hide
And I just can't fake it

It used to be so easy living here with you
You were light and breezy
And I knew just what to do
Now you look so unhappy
And I feel like a fool

And it's too late baby, now it's too late
Though we really did try to make it
Something inside has died
and I can't hide
And I just can't fake it

There'll be good times again for me and you
But we just can't stay together
Don't you feel it too
Still I'm glad for what we had
And how I once loved you

But it's too late baby, now it's too late
Though we really did try to make it
Something inside has died and I can't hide
And I just can't fake it

Don't you know that I...
I just can't fake it
Oh it's too late my baby
Too late my baby
You know
It's too late my baby

a thought

Fri, 28 Aug 2009 04:13:22 GMT

Even the worst day is improved with free slushies. And this was not the worst day.

I Am Wondering

Wed, 26 Aug 2009 05:23:17 GMT

I ask this more out of genuine curiosity than any sense of angst. How many people are still reading and using LiveJournal? While I can't say I'm too worried about the lack of commentary here, I've also noticed a downturn in the friends list in the last year or so. Is the decline continuing here?

Just wondering. Because if you hadn't noticed, even I'm having a hard time maintaining interest here. I have this sneaking feeling that the days of regular updates may be winding down for a little while.

All-Out Art Attack!

Tue, 25 Aug 2009 05:19:06 GMT

It's (finally) time again for another Return of Jetman update! This time, we're featuring new art pieces in the DX Gallery showcasing the talents of Sara Denny, Igadevil, Kabuki Katze, and Lewis Smith. They're all winners, so check them out and savor the awesomeness!

If you like what you see, drop us a comment and let us know. There will be more ROJ in your immediate future, but more than that, I cannot reveal at this time.

S-A-T-U-R-D-A-Y! NIGHT!

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 02:57:43 GMT

So, I got my plumbing situation fixed on Thursday, which is a relief. I already have way too much on my mind, so getting things like that resolved is an immense help.

Trying to get some of my junk back in order. I let a lot of things fall by the wayside for one reason or another, and it disrupts my sense of order when I leave it too long. Oh, it's funny, but it's true. I'm in the process of restoring order to my comic book collection, which is a lot simpler than it once was.

I'd like to get back on a regular sleep schedule at some point. That's not asking too much, is it?

two days?

Sat, 22 Aug 2009 01:59:08 GMT

Uhhhhh, I have no idea where I've been. Alien abduction, maybe?

Seriously, I should update this. But not tonight. Except for this.

There is nothing in my heart at all right now

Wed, 19 Aug 2009 04:45:19 GMT

I guess I keep expecting something magical to happen this year. I'm not sure why. Maybe I'm maintaining some degree of optimism. This despite the fact that, for the most part, this has not been a banner year for me in any respect. It is hard to shake the notion that I'm being tested or punished or...something.

I had a certain set of expectations regarding this year when it started. Absolutely none of them are going to come to pass. That's a fact. That's no one's fault; it's just how things happened. I'm beyond feeling gutted by that. It is just The Way Things Are, and I have to pick up the pieces of those shattered expectations and paste them back together into something that gives me fulfillment.

So far, nothing has. I knew that material things would be a stop-gap measure; they always are. My Johnny Lee impression (look it up) hasn't yielded anything more than a few promising leads that have led absolutely nowhere.

Perhaps that last sentence isn't even true. Perhaps a couple of them will go someplace eventually. But it will be a long, long road, and I wonder how I will manage it. I've never been good at this sort of thing, and the odds are a lot worse for me than they once were. So I have to put my faith in the notion that someone else out there is interested in the flawed piece of merchandise I'm selling - namely, me.

Don't get me wrong - I still do truly believe that I have a lot of positive qualities to offer the right person. But that's contingent on finding this so-called "right" person, and getting them interested.

It would help if my life wouldn't be one rolling disaster after another. I'd like to take the time to sit down and get in touch with where I should go from here, and analyze those thoughts rationally with a minimum of interference. That is not especially easy when you keep having to invest your time and money fixing stuff, and generally putting out figurative fires. I don't really have time to focus on ME lately because I'm too busy fretting about calling in a plumber to fix a leaky bathroom fixture and how much money both the plumbing bill and the water bill are going to run.

I can't say I feel sorry for myself. Not anymore, anyway. I just keeping wondering when this madness will end and I'll see the light at the end of the tunnel. There's got to be one sooner or later.

I have to believe that.

ack

Tue, 18 Aug 2009 04:05:42 GMT

I think I left my creativity in my other pants.

Yow

Mon, 17 Aug 2009 03:02:53 GMT

What is this country song doing on my Bee Gees collection?

I didn't sleep at all last night!

Sun, 16 Aug 2009 00:47:14 GMT

Seriously. Got busy cleaning and filing and couldn't sleep. Just as thrilled about this as you'd imagine. I'm checking this and that, but I'm planning on kicking out of here early tonight. Sorry if anyone was looking for me.

As for me, I'm juuuuust about at the end of my rope after all the stuff that keeps breaking in my life. I'm not asking for a miracle like a giant pile of money outside my front door or anything. I just want things to go right for a little while before more stuff goes wrong. Especially since two or three things all seem to crop up at once.

I'd like to believe that good things are coming my way again.