Current mood:

gloomy

Into the distance
I'm staring down several milestones for this journal this month. And I need to make some changes in my life. Not necessarily here, although here too. I like to think I'm pointing in the right direction for some things, but...I don't know. And with others, I feel like I've regressed further. I hate it.

I'd like to think I'm ready to make those changes, to take action on the things that need action. What's the hold up? Why can't I take control of my life again, which is the one thing I most desperately want more than anything else? It'd be easy to make excuses about my own failings, but I won't. I have plenty, and working in concert with the poor circumstances that keep bedeviling me, things aren't really going the way I want them. At all. And every step forward seems to be followed by three steps back.

Well, anyway, I'm going to bed. Time to contemplate other things as I attempt to sleep, I guess.